Saturday, July 25, 2009
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
oh no
they plowed over our backyard garden today. they cut almost everything down. they took the 12ft tall sunflowers, the morning glories, the day lillies, the moon flowers, the dianthus, tomato plants, a baby maple tree, a baby oak tree, etc etc etc. it looks like a vacant lot back there now. there is just a big open yard of dirt. they even tore down our lattice archway with the morning glories climbing around it. luckily, they left our bench swing, red chair, firepit, and lavender and clayomes (but only because we caught them in time and asked them to). i suppose it is at least a little more okay because i hadn't put as much into it this year as i had been the last couple of years, and we have some nice things growing out front as well. it's still pretty upsetting, though. they did it because we moved upstairs and some people are moving in downstairs and apparently they thought we 'didn't want any of that stuff back there anymore'. whatever. i guess we can plant some new stuff. it is rough seeing it like this though.
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
we're starting to get more settled in to our new place, trying to finish unpacking and rearranging. we're both pretty stoked about it all. things are kinda sprawling along on a different level. we're trying to do all kinds of things this summer, and maybe even take another trip. we're looking at sf, portland, or chicago. amber really wants to see bat for lashes.
tomorrow we're going to get our car back and hang out with my family for a bit, then amber's family for the afternoon / evening. i hope her mom's feeling better. she is deathly allergic to onions and accidentally ate something with a small amount of them today at a restaurant. i guess she got quite sick and her face swelled up but it wasn't bad enough to need to go to the hospital. i'm excited, though to hang out with her parents. we don't get to see them very often, and they've just recently bought a house and moved over to bucyrus. it's very nice and i think they really like having people over.
also tomorrow night the new harry potter movie will be coming out. i'm so super excited about it.
ooh off to bed for me, have to get up early.
tomorrow we're going to get our car back and hang out with my family for a bit, then amber's family for the afternoon / evening. i hope her mom's feeling better. she is deathly allergic to onions and accidentally ate something with a small amount of them today at a restaurant. i guess she got quite sick and her face swelled up but it wasn't bad enough to need to go to the hospital. i'm excited, though to hang out with her parents. we don't get to see them very often, and they've just recently bought a house and moved over to bucyrus. it's very nice and i think they really like having people over.
also tomorrow night the new harry potter movie will be coming out. i'm so super excited about it.
ooh off to bed for me, have to get up early.
Friday, June 19, 2009
the universe always says yes
wow
so we've been through some really hard times this spring. printmaking took all of our time even our sleep. we were pulling like 3-4 all nighters a week by the end and sleeping only a couple hours the remaining days. everywhere i looked somebody seemed to be saying something cynical, pessimistic, or offensive toward me. people around me seemed to have given up on their dreams, shrugging at their own unhappiness apathetically. everything seemed to be crashing down.
then i felt this really strong magical connection to this apartment upstairs and had a sort of vision of it. it became clear to me that we needed to let go of some things that were no longer working for us. amber wasn't so sure, but we did a reading and it was pretty clear there too, and we visited it again and she opened up to it. then just as i called to rent it out, someone else had put in an application on it, so it was reserved for them. we waited all weekend to see if the application would be denied or something. it was approved, so the people were going in to sign the lease that week... and we believe them to be frat boy types, throwing obnoxious football parties, shouting things like "yeah bro!", and drinking cheap domestic beer all over the lawn. bah! i was so confused as to why i would have such a feeling / vision. why would our reading even say specific things about it? why would we be presented with an opprotunity and then have the universe retract it??
in the midst of all this, i think we both felt pushed to a breaking point with the working and sleep deprivation. instead of a message of empowerment, i drew on my lithography plate a question of
'who is winning / losing' in a battle between me and the cynics (giant jagged rocks with mean faces, falling on my head). i tried to make it so that it was unclear whether i had some hidden internal superpower that would break the rocks or if they would simply crush me. i used sharpie. during the longh chemical process, something went awry and my image washed out considerably. the way it washed out, though was of particular interest. the image of me was almost completely gone, and the jagged edges of the rocks were no longer visible as dangerous things, but the faces in the rocks remained pretty clear. it was like a metaphor for my entire life at that point: the amswer to my question, i was losing. i was dissapearing. i printed it anyways, deciding that this was what was meant to show up, and deciding that the true expression had manifested itself onto the prints instead of my intended image.
as printmaking took more of our money, and it seemed almost impossible for the quarter to end, our financial state began to overshadow our bonnaroo plans. we wasted a few dollars on some lottery cards, hoping for a small sum. we had an impossible amount of work to do in a short time, no money, and we were both exhausted to the point of almost becoming ill. the sleep deprivation began producing hallucinations. the final critique for printmaking could also, we learned, not be moved as we had hoped and was scheduled for thursday morning from 10-6. we normally try to leave for bonnaroo wednesday night. we couldn't move it up even if everyone would have agreed on it, because there was so much work to be done, that moving it up even to wednesday would make all of this work completely impossible. we had to cancel our trip to west virginia, which we had been looking forward to. then, the week before finals week when we began trying to focus on the prize of bonnaroo, the transmission on our car went out. we were broke and barely had enough for the rent. we wouldn't have had much spending money as it was! we tried playing the scratch off lottery a few more times, hoping for just $500, to no avail.
we just kept our noses to the ground and worked on our final pieces and reflected, as suddenl;y, we felt really good about the artwork that we had made. amber and i really attained some new level of enlightenment about our own art through this whole experience! it feels so different!! suddenly it was like the sky opened up. the quarter ended, we somehow got all of our work done, and the mgmt for the apartment called us and said that those guys never came in and signed the lease- they strung them along for like 3 weeks, and then blew it off. we made arrangements to move there! :) everything seemed to be turning into this really positive thing! then, finally, money for bonnaroo did also fall out of the sky! i got a $1000 check in the mail from the accounting dept at the school because i had overpaid like a long time ago! we immediately rented a car and packed our things!
so we've been through some really hard times this spring. printmaking took all of our time even our sleep. we were pulling like 3-4 all nighters a week by the end and sleeping only a couple hours the remaining days. everywhere i looked somebody seemed to be saying something cynical, pessimistic, or offensive toward me. people around me seemed to have given up on their dreams, shrugging at their own unhappiness apathetically. everything seemed to be crashing down.
then i felt this really strong magical connection to this apartment upstairs and had a sort of vision of it. it became clear to me that we needed to let go of some things that were no longer working for us. amber wasn't so sure, but we did a reading and it was pretty clear there too, and we visited it again and she opened up to it. then just as i called to rent it out, someone else had put in an application on it, so it was reserved for them. we waited all weekend to see if the application would be denied or something. it was approved, so the people were going in to sign the lease that week... and we believe them to be frat boy types, throwing obnoxious football parties, shouting things like "yeah bro!", and drinking cheap domestic beer all over the lawn. bah! i was so confused as to why i would have such a feeling / vision. why would our reading even say specific things about it? why would we be presented with an opprotunity and then have the universe retract it??
in the midst of all this, i think we both felt pushed to a breaking point with the working and sleep deprivation. instead of a message of empowerment, i drew on my lithography plate a question of
'who is winning / losing' in a battle between me and the cynics (giant jagged rocks with mean faces, falling on my head). i tried to make it so that it was unclear whether i had some hidden internal superpower that would break the rocks or if they would simply crush me. i used sharpie. during the longh chemical process, something went awry and my image washed out considerably. the way it washed out, though was of particular interest. the image of me was almost completely gone, and the jagged edges of the rocks were no longer visible as dangerous things, but the faces in the rocks remained pretty clear. it was like a metaphor for my entire life at that point: the amswer to my question, i was losing. i was dissapearing. i printed it anyways, deciding that this was what was meant to show up, and deciding that the true expression had manifested itself onto the prints instead of my intended image.
as printmaking took more of our money, and it seemed almost impossible for the quarter to end, our financial state began to overshadow our bonnaroo plans. we wasted a few dollars on some lottery cards, hoping for a small sum. we had an impossible amount of work to do in a short time, no money, and we were both exhausted to the point of almost becoming ill. the sleep deprivation began producing hallucinations. the final critique for printmaking could also, we learned, not be moved as we had hoped and was scheduled for thursday morning from 10-6. we normally try to leave for bonnaroo wednesday night. we couldn't move it up even if everyone would have agreed on it, because there was so much work to be done, that moving it up even to wednesday would make all of this work completely impossible. we had to cancel our trip to west virginia, which we had been looking forward to. then, the week before finals week when we began trying to focus on the prize of bonnaroo, the transmission on our car went out. we were broke and barely had enough for the rent. we wouldn't have had much spending money as it was! we tried playing the scratch off lottery a few more times, hoping for just $500, to no avail.
we just kept our noses to the ground and worked on our final pieces and reflected, as suddenl;y, we felt really good about the artwork that we had made. amber and i really attained some new level of enlightenment about our own art through this whole experience! it feels so different!! suddenly it was like the sky opened up. the quarter ended, we somehow got all of our work done, and the mgmt for the apartment called us and said that those guys never came in and signed the lease- they strung them along for like 3 weeks, and then blew it off. we made arrangements to move there! :) everything seemed to be turning into this really positive thing! then, finally, money for bonnaroo did also fall out of the sky! i got a $1000 check in the mail from the accounting dept at the school because i had overpaid like a long time ago! we immediately rented a car and packed our things!
Friday, May 15, 2009
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
almost done with school for the quarter. this one has been extremely rough- pulling 2 all nighters a week and only getting 3 hours of sleep the other nights... we've been really working hard. somehow no matter how much i want to complain about this, i feel this growing sense of accomplishment and that it will all be worth it. i feel like i've grown as an artist considerably and i think there is a new level that has been reached.
chris moved out from upstairs and we went up to roam about the empty space. i felt this strong, immediate connection with the energy there and i feel like i just want to move up there and leave this place behind. i think that as much as i love this apartment it doesn't work for me anymore. i talked to the property mgr and basically we wouldn't get charged an app fee or a deposit, and since we have a strong love for the magical back garden and porch and kitchen (which is really the ONLY thing that really works in this place for us), i feel like we can rent the whole house out for the summer, then let the downstairs go in late summer before school starts. i don't think amber is really eeling the same way about it, i think she doesn't want to let go of the back porch and kitchen at all, because she feels like she won't have anywhere to be- which is oddly how i feel now (especially with her need for isolation when she is making artwork or writing). there are sooooo many reasons why i think that the space would be more beneficial to us, both practical and metaphysical. i'm anxious, though, that the place will get rented out before we really have a chance to think about it or something and i'll have missed out on this opprotunity to make this major change (which i feel at this point is pretty necessary).
i've been trying to remember to post some of the work i've been doing on newroadcalling.com, but i've been so busy that i've only really posted the web art stuff i've done and nothing that amber has done. the summer will be good for getting all of this kind of stuff together, and also both of our portfolios, of course- both the ones for the BFA review we are doing in the fall as well as our personal portfolios.
this has been a really crazy month in particular, and i guess i don't really see it getting any easier. in fact i think i'm going to try and work as much as possible in th efree time left over, so that we'll have money for bonnaroo and potentially for rent on both apartments, should things work out that way. i think i can do it all- i've recently gained new confidence and understanding of what i'm capable of.
chris moved out from upstairs and we went up to roam about the empty space. i felt this strong, immediate connection with the energy there and i feel like i just want to move up there and leave this place behind. i think that as much as i love this apartment it doesn't work for me anymore. i talked to the property mgr and basically we wouldn't get charged an app fee or a deposit, and since we have a strong love for the magical back garden and porch and kitchen (which is really the ONLY thing that really works in this place for us), i feel like we can rent the whole house out for the summer, then let the downstairs go in late summer before school starts. i don't think amber is really eeling the same way about it, i think she doesn't want to let go of the back porch and kitchen at all, because she feels like she won't have anywhere to be- which is oddly how i feel now (especially with her need for isolation when she is making artwork or writing). there are sooooo many reasons why i think that the space would be more beneficial to us, both practical and metaphysical. i'm anxious, though, that the place will get rented out before we really have a chance to think about it or something and i'll have missed out on this opprotunity to make this major change (which i feel at this point is pretty necessary).
i've been trying to remember to post some of the work i've been doing on newroadcalling.com, but i've been so busy that i've only really posted the web art stuff i've done and nothing that amber has done. the summer will be good for getting all of this kind of stuff together, and also both of our portfolios, of course- both the ones for the BFA review we are doing in the fall as well as our personal portfolios.
this has been a really crazy month in particular, and i guess i don't really see it getting any easier. in fact i think i'm going to try and work as much as possible in th efree time left over, so that we'll have money for bonnaroo and potentially for rent on both apartments, should things work out that way. i think i can do it all- i've recently gained new confidence and understanding of what i'm capable of.
Thursday, April 30, 2009
almost 5 in the morning
its nearly 5 in the morning and ive just arrived home from the studio at the school... again. this is getting insane i do not know when we will ever get some sleep. it is like week after week after week, just project after project. we pulled a genuine all nighter for our last printmaking project, working for 29 straight hours and then returning home at 10 AM to shower and go straight back up to class for the critique. this one seems worse because we've already stayed up this late tonight, and we've each got a tremendous amount of work to go. the crit is friday at 1130am. i have not even mixed inks yet let alone put any colors down, and weve got drawing project and sketchbooks due for our drawing class at 530pm today(thurs). since we have stayed up so late working tonight i don't know if i will have the steam to do the same tomorrow (although i must). and then we must work hard this weekend b/c we are short on the rent, and then we have a critique next wednesday for our web art class. too much... not cool.
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
sp qtr
we have studio classes every week day this quarter until 830pm except fri we get off at like 230. apparently our printmaking class is both extremely expensive and extremely time consuming. we are supposed to spend an extra 15-20 hrs a week outside of class working in the printmaking studios (not sure when we'll have time for that since we are basically in class all day every day but whatever). i guess we have some time on tuesday and thursday mornings to work on stuff. i'm excited about that class though, as we'll be learning tons of stuff like papermaking, lithography, screenprinting, etc etc etc. also we have a class that is sort of like web design combined with conceptual art. we are using the web as a medium for creating conceptual art, so for example interactive flash stuff, etc. tonite we have a life drawing class... you know the stereotypical nude figure drawing art school class. it'll be good as i've never been super great at drawing figures any other way than gesturally. plus i know amber will benefit because it'll be easier for her to sketch out her fashion and clothing designs. all of our classes are pretty exciting & definitely all going to be a lot of work. i got some more freelance work doing promo and live photos for a band. good to see that my portfolio is impressive to somebody. actually i think that i do a damn good job, and i don't have any trouble getting work when someone actually loks at my stuff, but perhaps i just am no good at networking - i don't know all of the right people like some folks. perhaps i need to learn how to be more sociable and charismatic. i don't know. i'm working on it. oh, we also found a model who needs promo photos done as well, and she'll probably be good to use in concept projects and such. she seems allright, has alternative / eclectic style, likes costume, and is not prudish. should work out just fine.
my mom is already asking me about grad school after this. i think she's worried we will be taking off too far away. she suggested cincinatti, but i know that we will not be staying in ohio. we havent really looked into a specific school but we're pretty much decided on where we are going. we haven't really gotten in to explaining this to our families or anything yet, because i'm not sure they would really understand at this point. amber's family thinks that columbus is too big a city and that we will be moving back to where they live when we are done with school here. i don't know why. my family thinks that we will stay here in columbus and get reasonable paying / somewhat-art-related jobs. i don't know why. i'm sure they would all be quick to point out that bigger cities cost a lot and that we already just scrape by here and that we will be far away from everyone, etc etc. we need to go where our careers/futures are both existant and respected, though. even in columbus people don't look at art (or music) as a real career. they think it is a hobby. so many people here just don't seem to care about anything. there are a few who do, but no matter how cool or amazing of a thing anyone does here, no one cares and everyone is super broke and defeated and they want to just sit and watch television and do what is comfortable. people outside of the village and campus are intolerant, prejudiced, and narrow minded- and we often forget that. columbus is cool but it's still ohio, i guess. anyway-
i'm getting new contacts and a pair of glasses on thursday. this is quite excellent because i havent been able to see properly now for a few months, having lost my glasses in abner the stationwagon years ago shortly before moving to canada, and also having just used up my last pair of contact lenses in december until they were not usable any longer and began scratching my eyes. since i am getting new glasses, i will be cutting my hair off a few weeks earlier than i usually would have. but it is okay. it is time anyway. speaking of hair, amber had me comb out most of the reat of her dreads the other night. we have been combing them out for a few weeks now (it is a long, difficult, painful process), but i just did the 9 on top this weekend. she has all straight hair except for three or four hiding underneath. i'm going to dye her roots for her today. i think she is pretty upset that she went ahead and took the top dreads out and wants me to put them back in. she does not want to look plain and she really liked having mostly straight hair around underneath and then the dreads around over top. ...... well she just kind of came bounding in and told me she's embracing her straight hair. she's trying on hats in the other room and playing with her hair and seems to be having a good time taking photos and such. she hasn't cried about her dreads at all today either. i guess we will see what she does ;)
ok that is all
my mom is already asking me about grad school after this. i think she's worried we will be taking off too far away. she suggested cincinatti, but i know that we will not be staying in ohio. we havent really looked into a specific school but we're pretty much decided on where we are going. we haven't really gotten in to explaining this to our families or anything yet, because i'm not sure they would really understand at this point. amber's family thinks that columbus is too big a city and that we will be moving back to where they live when we are done with school here. i don't know why. my family thinks that we will stay here in columbus and get reasonable paying / somewhat-art-related jobs. i don't know why. i'm sure they would all be quick to point out that bigger cities cost a lot and that we already just scrape by here and that we will be far away from everyone, etc etc. we need to go where our careers/futures are both existant and respected, though. even in columbus people don't look at art (or music) as a real career. they think it is a hobby. so many people here just don't seem to care about anything. there are a few who do, but no matter how cool or amazing of a thing anyone does here, no one cares and everyone is super broke and defeated and they want to just sit and watch television and do what is comfortable. people outside of the village and campus are intolerant, prejudiced, and narrow minded- and we often forget that. columbus is cool but it's still ohio, i guess. anyway-
i'm getting new contacts and a pair of glasses on thursday. this is quite excellent because i havent been able to see properly now for a few months, having lost my glasses in abner the stationwagon years ago shortly before moving to canada, and also having just used up my last pair of contact lenses in december until they were not usable any longer and began scratching my eyes. since i am getting new glasses, i will be cutting my hair off a few weeks earlier than i usually would have. but it is okay. it is time anyway. speaking of hair, amber had me comb out most of the reat of her dreads the other night. we have been combing them out for a few weeks now (it is a long, difficult, painful process), but i just did the 9 on top this weekend. she has all straight hair except for three or four hiding underneath. i'm going to dye her roots for her today. i think she is pretty upset that she went ahead and took the top dreads out and wants me to put them back in. she does not want to look plain and she really liked having mostly straight hair around underneath and then the dreads around over top. ...... well she just kind of came bounding in and told me she's embracing her straight hair. she's trying on hats in the other room and playing with her hair and seems to be having a good time taking photos and such. she hasn't cried about her dreads at all today either. i guess we will see what she does ;)
ok that is all
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
finals
we have another final this afternoon and one tomorrow morning. we are not used to this since we are used to having studio work and finishing projects for critiques. studying is boring! i'm not good at memorization either, but we're almost through it all, and tomorrow night we celebrate!
Thursday, March 12, 2009
almost spring
yayy- almost spring
wow a couple of weeks ago i felt like I was being stirred around by a giant supernatural spoon. now i think i'm definitely feeling the earth move beneath me. of course this is not necessarily bad- certainly changes are beginning- and changes are always good unless you try and fight them.
dreadful winter is finally over with and spring is starting to peek out. i want to enjoy all of the time we have left here in columbus, and i'm glad that we probably only have one or two more of these ohio winters before we are out of here. spring summer and fall we can deal with just fine, but winter is i'm trying not to get too anxious and live in the future or anything but i'm super excited about new york. i also know that we're not quite ready for it probably yet anyways, as we hardly utilize whats in the city around us, but hopefully we'll be doing more of that- i think were doing more of it already this year. anyways its still wonderful to think about and inspiring for me to enjoy the now as well.
i think maybe were going to skullys tonite and ravari on sat for the clampdown which was pretty cool last time. i've been wondering about going to ravari like next week b/c jacob and phil (& 2 others) are doing a weezer tribute show which will undoubtedly be awesome as everything they do is, but im still not sure what i think about it- guess ill just feel it out.
anyways glad this qtr is pretty much over. too much academic stuff! i'll be glad to get back to doing studio work :) and its getting to be much more fun and interesting and beneficial for us b/c we are getting so much deeper into the program that we are now into the more advanced classes and whatnot.
anyways im feeling pretty cheerful
wow a couple of weeks ago i felt like I was being stirred around by a giant supernatural spoon. now i think i'm definitely feeling the earth move beneath me. of course this is not necessarily bad- certainly changes are beginning- and changes are always good unless you try and fight them.
dreadful winter is finally over with and spring is starting to peek out. i want to enjoy all of the time we have left here in columbus, and i'm glad that we probably only have one or two more of these ohio winters before we are out of here. spring summer and fall we can deal with just fine, but winter is i'm trying not to get too anxious and live in the future or anything but i'm super excited about new york. i also know that we're not quite ready for it probably yet anyways, as we hardly utilize whats in the city around us, but hopefully we'll be doing more of that- i think were doing more of it already this year. anyways its still wonderful to think about and inspiring for me to enjoy the now as well.
i think maybe were going to skullys tonite and ravari on sat for the clampdown which was pretty cool last time. i've been wondering about going to ravari like next week b/c jacob and phil (& 2 others) are doing a weezer tribute show which will undoubtedly be awesome as everything they do is, but im still not sure what i think about it- guess ill just feel it out.
anyways glad this qtr is pretty much over. too much academic stuff! i'll be glad to get back to doing studio work :) and its getting to be much more fun and interesting and beneficial for us b/c we are getting so much deeper into the program that we are now into the more advanced classes and whatnot.
anyways im feeling pretty cheerful
Saturday, February 21, 2009
Monday, February 02, 2009
so were about a month into the new year. i wanted really for some things to change this year. i wanted that last year too, and they did, although maybe not in the same ways i hoped or expected. this past year was really pretty full of surprises. many of the good, some bad, many interesting (but hard to say whether good or bad- maybe both).
Wednesday, January 07, 2009
got new phones
We got new fones after like 5 years of having these old dinosaurs. I'm posting this from my phone to see how well it works.
Friday, December 12, 2008
break
time for winter break. classes are over. this quarter was quite enjoyable. if only they could all be. next quarter may be a bit of a drag = no art classes. we couldnt sign up for classes because i hadnt paid all my tuition still (technically amber could have signed up but she waited for me). so now we are stuck taking some of our general eds. spring quater is gonna be the bomb tho. well do the opposite and take all art studio classes. were gonna try to get in a painting class with rob who we had for color theory this time.
Wednesday, November 05, 2008
Tonight.
Joy. I'm completely taken aback. As I watched him speak to a crowd of a million people I knew this was one of the most significant moments in my life. I have ever been as proud of my country as I am tonight. Watching Barack Obama speak I knew that he really was someone I could believe in- and I truly do- not just as a politician- but as a person who I believe cares about people- everyone including myself, my wife, my neighbors, my family, everyone I'll ever meet, everyone. I watched him speak strongly and eloquently about unity, and my streaming tears spoke as loudly as my smile, and still I couldnt speak a word.
I'm so happy that our country can now take a new direction, to move on past the divisive, hurting society that Amber and I have had to live in for our entire adult lives. This is the dawning of a new hope for this country.
I'm so proud of my country and of people everywhere. This moment has inspired me greatly- not just because he won, but because the people all around me have stood up and made it happen. I am proud of my peers, my elders, and all of the youth out there especially. Their voices and their minds and their hearts have opened and shed light on a dark time, filling it with a new hope. When we act with love, we truly can do anything.
"Yes we can."
I'm so happy that our country can now take a new direction, to move on past the divisive, hurting society that Amber and I have had to live in for our entire adult lives. This is the dawning of a new hope for this country.
I'm so proud of my country and of people everywhere. This moment has inspired me greatly- not just because he won, but because the people all around me have stood up and made it happen. I am proud of my peers, my elders, and all of the youth out there especially. Their voices and their minds and their hearts have opened and shed light on a dark time, filling it with a new hope. When we act with love, we truly can do anything.
"Yes we can."
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