Down, Out and Up (a mountain)

Well after a good hike today amber and i are both feeling pretty depressed. It seems as though we are destined to be travellers for the rest of our days. Our restless souls cannot be tied to one place for too long. Whats worse? We really thought this time we found a place to call home- a place to stick around for a while, and some friends close enough to call a family. It may sound sudden, but it is certainly not. We have been supressing our unhappiness for a little while and trying to stay positive. Once the cracks in the illusion began to split though, we realized that we were merely outsiders and all of this time we have been supporting someone elses dream. I think that we really have a battle ahead of us, but how do we flee without burning this bridge?

Lately there has been some unspoken tension between us all and Lori confronted us about it all tonite. We explained that we've been feeling very homesick and that we also don't feel that we fit in well here. As much as we love the outdoors, camping, hiking, and nature, we are city people. We love the multicultural mix of people, the liberal ideas, the diversity in the city. We love taking long walks, chilling at coffee shops, being in the music and art scene. At first she seemed to understand, but by the end of the conversation I think she seemed more frustrated and defensive.

I guess the cards play out how they do no matter what you try to do to avoid it. I just hope its in the cards to survive this one and keep our friendships, because after all of the misadventures we've been through, it would at least be nice to take something with us, especially something as meaningful as a friendship. But it looks like it is out of our hands now. We can only be honest in saying that we belong in a city, not on a mountain, and if the people who asked us here cannot understand why we are not happy being here, then i don't suppose there is much we can do to make them understand.

Forget Smilefest, Go Bonnaroo!

Well our Smilefest photo and press passes eluded us so we are focusing all of our resources on Bonnaroo tickets. Bonnaroo is more our style anyways. We are still just a tad short on getting two tickets and without a steady source of income, we cannot guarantee that it will happen at all.

So far we have sold necklaces, shirts, and purses that Amber made, and homemade bumper stickers that I made, AND cleaned dorms at the folklife center to make the money we have. It is kind of cool knowing that selling artwork we created may get us such a cool experience. Better than it going to pay bills.

The mailout day for the tickets is june first. Thats two days from now, and we are 85 dollars short. After the 1st of June, they will continue to take orders until they sell out. I suspect they may sell out almost immediately. Bonnaroo is kind of like christmas to us, and i do believe our sanity may be at stake, so we are spending down to our last penny to get there. Last year's Bonnaroo was such a magical experience and I just can't imagine missing it this time around. We need some inspiration, and we REALLY need a reminder of who we are, especially right now.

Therefore it is absolutely of up-most importance that we find a way to Bonnaroo. Wish us luck. :)

Coffee and Cocoapuffs

Amber and I have been working quite a bit on our music the last couple days. We are in the process of writing 2 new songs and I think we are evolving quite a bit. We seem to be moving in the direction from our folkie soft-spoken coffee house songs to some more rythmic alternative stuff. Did a tarot card reading the other night. Interesting stuff, and always so right too. Well all the while, I thnk we know exactly what to do and how to do it. I think we need to start stepping up to the plate with our music, too. The plate is, after all, right in front of us.

Song of Creation

We were all up last night and early into the morning, creating this crazy music and with spoken parts over it. We recorded it and i think its like 30 minutes long. We drew pictures and wrote amazing stuff. I actually drew a picture of a giant wave coming up onto land near the mountains and under the sun, and then we read this afternoon that an 8.0 earthquake had happened in the south pacific early in the morning and there were supposed to be tsunami warnings out there.The last time one happened, Amber and I felt the energy from it beforehand also.

May Day

Yesterday was may day!
We went to a really cool may day event at this huge 400 acre commune about an hour away from us. They did the may pole dance and had a big feast, and then a bonfire. It was all very ceremonious and celebratory- and it was like completely stepping into another universe. The stars were so bright and amazing. We even saw some shooting stars and the energy of the evening was absolutely intense. I think we were in some kind of time lapse too, because it felt as if we were there for a long period of time, but it was only midnight when we left.