things have been going quite a bit better the last few days. we took an awesome little trip to yellow springs and did some leisurely hiking and even just sitting in the woods. also i got some stones & amber got some feathers and things there too. last night we went to a friends house for their birthday party and it was pretty chilly so we had a fire in the fire pit and chatted for a little while. today ambers getting ready to go to her internship at wosu (pbs) downtown. im probably going to do some reading, writing, drawing, and maybe take a trip to the library.

i kind of miss our cat and i want to go pick her back up from amber's mom's house where she took a vacation while we were in chicago. also i think we have been wanting to get ambers sister to come down and stay with us for a little while. i think that would be nice for all of us really. last time she came down here we had a really positive time.

it has also been quite a bit cooler here the last few days and that's been nice. it makes it so we are actually able to do things outside or around the house without getting our energy drained out by the heat.ive been thinking a lot about portland and san fransisco again. i think that sf has the most perfect weather, never above 85 never below 45, pretty much always between 55 and 75. portlands weather is a little more like ours here in ohio but much milder, not as cold in the winter and not as hot in the summer, generally. im thinking i want to go back out west and explore it out there some more. im really just feeling the west coast vibe right now and especially after being in chicago for a weekend, i'd like to be somewhere where people are a little nicer. not sure if thats the case in sf but portland seemed to have some super nice people. well anyhow im really enjoying the chill in the air and the renewed sense of energy i have from it not being 95 degrees or more. i think im really looking forward to autumn, and ive got a feeling of excitement for all the things im going to do soon.

well it seems that this has been quite a rough summer so far. things are sure just becoming more confusing and even when i think things will be turning around they seem to go into an even deeper negativity. people everywhere seem to be acting unkind towards one another, and unfortunately im finding myself on the receiving end of that unkindness quite often. its even as if every instance of good i try to put out there is met with a barrage of bad. the futility of the situation is rather strange.


chicago did not go so well. even though we were perfectly capable and planning on walking downtown to the bus, a friend offered to pick us up and drop us off. they did not show up, and by the time we realized they were not coming, we had only 12 minutes. we had to run with our heavy bags through the village and the park, sweating in the heat and looking crazy to all of the rude bystanders. we made the bus, but just barely. then began a weekend of being treated poorly by others, being broke, and amber having a sprained ankle from the run (that we initially thought might have been a fracture). it was a rough weekend.

things have changed since then, but it appears as if we are in some kind of rut. even really good things that come along seem to be turning bad a few moments later.not sure whats going on. i know that mercury just entered retrograde, and it has been brought to our attention a few times that this will be affecting everyone until mid-september. im gonna try to keep my head on straight. im gonna try to get some positive energy going for both amber and i, and just deal with everything one day at a time.

its been a strange summer so far. its been a little bit lonely for me, and im much too far overworked. luckily, amber and i will be going to good old chicago, to lollapalooza. we leave tomorrow at 10:40 on the megabus, and we'll be staying at a little hotel right downtown. we will not have much money with us to spend, but i think we will be just fine. we are both good at having a really good time really cheap-ly. anyhow, now that we have returned from the laundrymat, it is 2am and we still have packing to do! perhaps we will go to sleep and pack in the morning. anyway, i'm totally stoked for adventure!!