Free!

ha! on break from school!
oh! the things we will do!

2 1/3 more days of school

wednesday, friday, small part of monday!
we are greatly looking forward to taking a much needed break!


whew!

maybe this ohio winter won't be so bad

went to an old friends house last night downtown and we watched the concert for george. also we listened to george harrison's second studio album- living in the material world- on vinyl. our friend has a pretty extensive record collection. anyways it was cool to hang with someone who isn't preachy or weepy or completely self-absorbed (it's kind of been a while). also ran into someone i used to work with who used to be a firefighter, now a journalist, and traveling. he seems pretty happy and its pretty cool to see some personal evolution taking place there.

we're doing better with school projects not kicking our ass. we seem to be through the worst. did a new tarot card reading recently that also seems to agree with this. still no money, but we have food and house, so who cares?
today is a good day. beautiful colors in the leaves and warm sun beams all about.

peace to all.

goin on...

just goin on...

fighting back

the past couple of days have been interesting for me. things are kind of coming to a boiling point, and people are moving into positions to try and break us with their imaginary weapons. sunday, i started fighting back. two days in a row i have had to be backed into a corner where i had no choice but to defend myself, and i've had flex my metaphysical muscles a little. why do people think that because we are young, that this means we are ignorant or inexperienced or what have you... ? everyone mistakes my silence for ignorance, but i am being humble. i listen to people tell me how to be an artist, how to make money, how to be spiritual, how to do this and that,.. all from people who can't get it together themselves. they are talking for their own sake, not mine. and i'm listening for their sake. you can tell that the thought never occurs to them that i might actually have something to say at all, let alone something that is more meaningful than their petty shit. anyone who needs to boost their own ego or maybe reassure themselves of something need not use me right now. i'm running out of much normally ample patience, and i'm tired of being used.

i've figured something out, though. people are bitter toward us because they cannot work out in their head how we get away with living outside of society's rules. they think we don't suffer any consequences for our choices, but they are wrong. the consequences are actually created by the bitter bystanders themselves. they have been treated unfairly for breaking out of societies boundaries, so when they see someone else do it, they say 'well if i couldn't do it you can't either'. what they do not understand is that we do not live in fear of consequence as they do, and therefore we do not let imaginary rules and imaginary boundaries rule our lives. sure, we take crap for our lifestyles, and sometimes things get hard, but this is nothing compared with the benefits that we receive: benefits which are infinite, transcending time, space, matter, rules, observations, etc etc etc. we have been given so many wonderful gifts that are infinitely more powerful than any rule, any fear or anger, any insecurity, and certainly any asshole with some false material-given sense of power.

these people and their rules have no real power over us. we are ALL as free as we believe we are.

thank you to wayne coyne (and the w.a.n.d) for teaching me this. i aspire to spread such beautiful messages of hope and love.

feeling weary

mean people suck
glad i'm not one of them

experiment in time travel #2

thursday night well after midnight, we had been working on school work since the minute we got up in the morning, and we still had not even started another project that was due the next day. amber was recovering from a cold, i was falling ill with one, we were tired and essentially ran out of food in the house. upset and discouraged (starting to freak out), we decided to go hang out with some friends in the back yard for a bit to clear our minds. after spending a wonderful hour outside, it was now even later and we decided to make coffee and get back to work. after coming inside, we completed about 8 hours worth of work in roughly ten minutes. we were still up late enough to only get about 3 or 4 hours of sleep, but the next day we both were recovered from our colds (i never even fully got one) and all the anxiety we felt about school had been lifted. we had a great day :) we're lucky that amber is a genius and has mystical powers. this is our second time travel, the first being at a may day festival in west virginia. yes, one can transcend time and space if the mindset is right.

more projects

have about 20 hours worth of work to do in the next 36 hours. worn down. ambers sick and i'm getting there.

90 degrees, 70 degrees, 40 degrees; ohio

so after a long spell of 93 degree days, we are instantly zapped down to the 40s and 50s. this seems to have made everyone either tired or sick. luckily, amber and i are just tired. classes are rolling along much smoother now. haven't pulled any all nighters this week :)

now that connie has moved out, our secret garden is all that remains outside the cafe. the vibe is changing around here a bit, not necessarily for better or worse, but incomparably different. there are still lots of good folks around and now (hopefully) some of the drama has subsided. there have been an alarming number of disturbances since the end of summer involving so many good people. we are so fortunate to be a part of this family. i can only hope that harmony can be restored for everyone. amber and i are trying to keep the community at peace. the consciousness of this place and these people is so powerful, and capable of doing so much good.

anyways, having a fire tonight out back. hoping to do some chillin outside.

wire

ugh. its late. still sculpting. amber too. my hands are blistering from this wire. i gotta just relax- we are doing much too much work here.

anniversary

10 years together! 4 of them we've been married!

how to melt your brain

spend all your time in studio classes. no books, lectures, or reading; just work, work and more (art)work. : ]

School, bike, etc

Well, this week was our first week of school. We have 3 nine hour days. The other 2 days we pretty much are using to work on our art projects for those classes. It's all pretty demanding. We've been pretty rushed the last week and already had to pull one all-nighter to finish a project- mostly because we spent that whole day running around town to different art stores looking for supplies on foot- our car is unusable. We took it for some repairs and were without it all week. Upon its return we learned that the rear tires were concealing some pretty bad wear on the insides. The steel belts were coming through and the tires were separating. Needless to say it's much too dangerous to continue driving, hence all the running around on foot. It would have been nice to have my bike for all this; too bad some asshole had to steal it. I've seen the guy wondering around out back and trying to get into our basement doors to sleep. He steals other peoples' bikes, so I would assume he stole mine. Well he's an asshole and he's aggressive, too, and although I'm not a violent person, I can't have him trying to get in the house. If I see him back there trying to open those doors, I'm gonna kick his ass hard.

Now that all the venting is over, hopefully this next week will be a little more chill. Whew. Our cat misses us. OOh, but I AM getting a new bike this week, and it is new, but I'm going to cover that shiny new paint with a few layers of a vintage matte color. Not only will it look cooler, but also (and more importantly) it will look crappier. This makes it more desirable to me and less desirable to others. I'm keeping it indoors. So fuck off, neon ron.

Anyways, its now tetris and tea time ;)

west virginia

(transferred from a notebook)
on the road again.
yes, it feels good.

we are stopped at a rest area a little ways outside of charleston. we had planned on arriving at the festival early this evening and setting up camp there, but we had some car trouble that caused us delays. lucky for us, it didn't stop us from coming altogether, but the problem is not resolved, so there are some negative possibilities regarding our return to columbus. this is our first return back to west virginia since we left over a year ago. this rest area is a comfort and has welcomed us in with good vibrations all the way from the highway. we considered driving all night, but for some reason, despite all of my nervous energy, it felt right to stop and join our friends in the morning bright and early. there is something about sleeping in the car that feels like home to me (both of us, really). who needs hotels? the car is like a warm fire or going to grandma's house; yes what a comfort.

amber and i had a lot of time to talk on the way down. we expressed a lo of things regarding not only the present situation, but also many other things back home: school, sanctuary, wise men, self defense, the bus book, the perverted taoist, the mentally challenged intellectual nietzsche reader, momma's boys, our van, metaphysical roads, and tarot card readings. we have both learned much from this summers divine agenda, just as we learned much from our springtime. strong connections have been made which will produce fruits of good energy.

Life creates life.

yesterday / next week

there was some kind of weird energy in columbus yesterday. both amber and i felt it. not quite sure what the source was, but it has moved on.

on the lighter side, next week will be a time of great changes. we are planning to revisit our brothers and sisters in wv and and enjoy the festivities at their festival, all of which could not come at a better time; a prelude to a new quarter at school, which starts 2 days later.